Reflection through positive mindset
Almost 3 months back, I made a decision for myself which led me to a better future through different stages. During the first week, I can still remember the negativity and doubts I had in my mind about the future and most importantly about myself. But miracles happen, in my case it did happen. From a low self-esteem person to a lively, resilient and ready to take any challenge with a big smile person this journey was unexpected.
The instance that amazed me of myself and my performance is honestly the assessment week. From the start, I had fear of being assessed by externals. Even in my studies I always did well but when it came to assessment all my hard work went wasted. I used to get confused and used to fear the results early rather than thinking of the present moment. That shadow of fear was always successful to take me down. But luckily, not in this case. I was doing well, gradually putting my efforts in the fellowship but was not happy with my performance until I got to know of the positive changes it has on myself from the start. Surprisingly, I performed very well in the group assessment showcasing my teamwork, khudi and aik aur aik gyara qualities. And then, the unforgettable part of my life happened at the mock interview. I can’t express the feeling I had about myself at that time. Light, full of hope, a bulk of positive energy inside me, strong feelings of self-belief and a huge smile on my face that was me at that time. It was the result of continuous efforts by my facilitators Ma’am Sahar and Sir Saim were putting on me and the support of my Amal batch fellows. Despite being dull about my life, at that time I stood up for myself and conquered my fear. I can’t even remember I could be more proud of myself other than this moment. I said to myself;
“Finally, you did it and did it smilingly.”
Right after the mock interview, for the first time during the fellowship I raised my hand willingly and reflected on my mock interview’s experience. Another lollipop moment for me. I realized this is what the fellowship has made me “Positive about life”.
I believe this fellowship is a new path for me to start a new journey by being positive. During the mock interview, I was smiling and was very passionate about it. It reflected and as a result my interviewer started smiling and complimenting me on my positive mindset. Truly, emotions are contagious so reflect in a positive way with a big smile ready to turn any challenge into a life changing opportunity. Not just that I’m now reflective, thoughtful, motivated and thankful in my group discussions as well. It’s because of this positive mindset that I’ve started believing in myself for the good.
Looking back, if I were not a part of this life changing fellowship I would have reacted to my challenges and assessment in a negative way on the verge of giving up and mourning over my conservative mindset. Thankfully, things have changed now for the better. All the credit goes to the whole Amal team especially my facilitators for this wonderful transformation. Now, I learned to believe in others and in myself just by developing a positive mindset. Thank you Amal for the wonderful experience and for making me for what I’m. Because, in the end what matters the most is how you see yourself in the reflecting mirror.